Choosing JOY not Guilt

How does it happen that this thing called guilt sneaks in and robs of us joy and opportunities? Why do we allow this thing that if it was tangible we would immediately bear arms and fight? I don’t know? I’m not good at fighting guilt. I love my children with this love that is longsuffering. I try to give them the world but still, this little voice speaks into me that I’m not giving them the universe.

While  speaking with a friend tonight about his kids and how he tries to do everything for them- I saw a glimpse of how my eyes must look when they are guilt- ridden.  I don’t like it. I want eyes full of joy. Who says everything has to be done perfectly for the people around you to be  happy?

I want to let go of guilt. I’m not the best mom in the world, but I’m the best mom for my kids. I might not be the best friend you can have but I will love you when you need me. My house might not be spotless but you know what? My nieces were over and I chose to make chicken noodles rather than clean. My kids and nieces enjoyed them on a cold winter’s night.  A clean house would have not created the same reaction as the steaming, yummy bowls of soup. “Guilt is a joy robber”-me.

Give yourself permission to let guilt go. Tomorrow is a new day, or rather today is a new day. I don’t know why I feel this burning desire to blog at 1:33am but that’s when it’s happening lol.  Tomorrow i coach those cute little 9 and 10 year olds , including my son, in basketball and I will chose to celebrate with them tomorrow.