Day 3-The Pursuit for JOY

It is 1:19am and I can’t sleep. It seems as if every problem or potential problem I have in my world runs thru my mind as I lay down. I always wonder how I can be this tired but my mind is still going fast? I resolve every problem in my head, trying out various scenarios. And not only that but I resolve problems that happened in the past using new ways to resolve them even though it’s too late, they have already manifested themselves in failure. And I have to let them go.

Today I posted I was looking for land and received some leads using a buy and sell trade site. It was my first time posting on something like that, so an interesting experience. Tomorrow, I go look at land with a dear friend and realtor who I have known for 21 years. It’s hard to believe I actually met at a yard sale when my son, joshua, was a baby! It’s funny how people come back into your life. I still get a little panicky wondering if me…this single woman has any business buying land and building a house? But I want to do this, it means something to me. Joy isn’t found in material things. I know that. “Dreams were meant to follow and there is joy in the journey” And you can quote me on that😊

I also did something I love tonight. I coached little kids basketball❤️. For so long I wanted to do this and I was told it was better suited for men to do. I second guess myself If I’m good enough to coach, it parents are happy with me, if the kids are learning all they should? But in the end it brings me great joy and I’m happy to be doing this.