Tag: Comparison

I’m in Giant Eagle parking lot in the midst of errands and was so compelled to write I came out to my car. I laugh wondering if others write their blogs from their office or in a more sophisticated way, but my ideas come fast and furious. And my coffee is cold from the many extra things that popped up on my day’s agenda, but I take cold sips and ponder myself as a human. I laugh at myself for this and take this selfie. I try to see if my eyes show I am kind? Do I care about what others think of me? Can I take this year and have true joy not based on if others support or applaud my efforts? Can I escape the power of comparison, or do I want him to steal my joy? The answer is easy from my brain, a resounding NO!

So my brain know this, but my heart got kickboxed yesterday by comparison. Comparison came and gripped my heart last night, far into the wee hours of the morning. I sat in my bed watching the sun rise on the horizon and made a mental list of all the ways I could make comparison leave. This list contained all the things I could do to make me more like the person comparison told me I must change into. At times I get so brave and have this attitude “I don’t care what people think.” But then there are times that comparison comes in like a lion. He prowls around pacing, his prey. And normally it’s on the heels of other things going on in our lives. Comparison knows our weaknesses.

I know all of this, but yet comparison still at times grips my heart. On the heels of my last blog, where someone had expressed their dislike of me, it left me wounded and easy prey for comparison. As a woman, I think the promises of being more beautiful or appealing is such a trap. And at times when we feel we are being compared, ouch, just ouch! But in the midst of comparison’s claws we sometimes lose our self worth. It can be our looks, our jobs, our motherhood skills, being single, or being in a relationship. It doesn’t matter, comparison wants all of you. Whatever it takes for comparison to kill your self worth he will attempt.

I want to chose Joy in the person I am at this very moment. I don’t need to change into someone else. I want to be this human that is capable of loving and caring for others. It’s not about thinking I’m better than someone but rather seeing the best in others. I was a little upset at myself this afternoon that I lost sleep over this ugly one that calls himself comparison. There will always be beautiful humans, and humans I feel are out of my league, but here’s the thing. There is only one of “me” and there is only one of you. What others see in you, as no worth, another might find great value in. And that is amazing!!! And sometimes we do just need to be brave and tell comparison he has no place in our life, he is the thief of Joy.