To my dear readers who are so faithful in reading my blog, I am still here and writing! I took a job with a magazine and I’m loving it, but just trying to reprioritize my life! ☺️ So, this morning, in the midst of painting this shelf for my kitchen, I was enraptured by this swirl of thoughts. I had to take a moment and write this blog.
The last couple of days I have been overwhelmed with how light can brighten our lives to the core of our hearts. Light shows up and this darkness you might be experiencing can’t compete with the embrace of brilliant light.
I had time for this little walk yesterday. I was all alone, on this wide path in the middle of this large woods. I just stood there, as silent as possible. There had been white, puffy, cumulus clouds covering the fall skies, but all of a sudden light came pouring through the partially barren trees. I was suddenly enveloped in this beautiful orange and yellow glow. I stood there mesmerized. I didn’t want to break this moment, I literally had tears trying to grasp this experience, this phenomenon that I was part of. I didn’t move, I would normally want to take a picture but I just stood there. It was as if God had this sunbeam, and He had saved it for me, on this beautiful fall day. And then I felt this peace. Beautiful, light-filled peace that dissipates darkness.
Maybe some will say it was coincidental? But I choose to think that life is way more amazing than just a series of coincidences. I should have never been on that walk. I went to a hospital to visit a friend and as I was leaving discovered a park across the street. I had an important phone call and decided to sit at the park to take the call. But the call took only a few minutes which prompted me to take a short walk. I would have missed that moment, it makes me so very thankful that I didn’t.
So, this day brings back normal things but that moment of light has stayed with me. I had many days in the last couple of years where I felt like I was drowning in darkness. I felt like my life was on this dead end where my path no longer had any room for light. But it wasn’t true. Today I am working hard painting this very ugly, dark shelf that was in my old house. I’m doing repairs on it and painting it white for my new kitchen. But it made me realize, sometimes light doesn’t come in this amazing, unexpected, easy way like it did for me in the woods. Sometimes it’s taking something from our old life and working hard to change and bring light into our new life. And I think if we can just let a sliver of light penetrate what we think is ugly or useless, we can release that darkness that holds our hearts in hostage.
A woman who chose joy 